This has been a struggle for me. I want to be able to know and understand His word better each day, but it’s been hard with this constant lingering question: Is my understanding truly the intention and meaning of His word? Am I being self-righteous in that I’m interpreting the Bible to cater to my own wants and needs? I pray to God that this isn’t true but sometimes I don’t know. As I attempt to dig deeper in the Word, I’m finding it to be more of a struggle. God is revealing more and more things to me, but sometimes I find myself to be in confusion. Maybe I need to get plugged into some form of Bible study or maybe I need to be having more conversations with certain people. Whatever the case may be…I am still in awe of the mystery of God. 

“My feelings are not God. God is God. My feelings do not define truth. God’s word defines truth. My feelings are echoes and responses to what my mind perceives. And sometimes - many times - my feelings are out of sync with the truth. When that happens - and it happens every day in some measure - I try not to bend the truth to justify my imperfect feelings, but rather, I plead with God: Purify my perceptions of your truth and transform my feelings so that they are in sync with the truth.” 
― John Piper, Finally Alive

Thank you John Piper for these wise words. &thank you God for John Piper. Lord I ask that you help me to continually seek the truth. 

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, 
   neither are your ways my ways,” 
            declares the LORD. 
“As the heavens are higher than the earth, 
   so are my ways higher than your ways 
   and my thoughts than your thoughts.”

Isaiah 55:8-9